Looking back,
I'm like a traveller.
Going from places to places.
Looking around,
Learning stuff,
Mixing with the "locals".
But never making an impression.
Just passing by.
Just moving along.
Taking photos and leaving nothing behind.
I'm like a traveller.
Going from places to places.
- Travelling from places to places.
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zuliver- December 5th, 21:07
bored
- 30 minutes to the End of the work week.
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- zuliver
- December 4th, 17:31
Its 1720 now. Another 30 more minutes to the end of the work day and work week.
Been filling up my workbook that is rather void of results.
All the results i have so far i don't know how to interpret.
Been too busy with other work to ask my SP.
Now Its just filling up with the other work that i have been doing.
At the same time, i'm just listening to music from a streaming website.
Forgot to bring my harddisk to work.
Wonder how everybody is.
Not just the ppl on SIP.
Everybody whom i know.
From my ex school mates to the silat group to the softball juniors.
Seriously lost connection with alot of ppl.
Been feeling sort of sick the past few days.
Odd bowel movements causing me discomfort.
Doctor says its nth wrong.
Eat more fibre he says.
Easier said then done says I.
My body seriously has been deteriorating since i entered poly.
I guess its cause i was too complacent.
Four whole years of not going to the doctor ruined by that.
Anyway there isnt much to write.
Just wanting to pass the time by letting my thoughts out.
Oh lookie.
Its 1730. 20 more minutes to the end of the work.
- Haunting
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- zuliver
- November 24th, 9:42
Guess where am I right now? I am sitting in the middle of my procedure watching four rats explore their cage through a video cam linked to the computer. Al though I'm jam packed with work, I have no choice but to sit here and baby-sit rats. I've got 16 other rats behind me watching me blog. So cute. Haha.
Well the past few months of handling and culling animals have finally taken a slight toll on me. They decided to haunt me last night. Technically it was a haunting cause in most cases people would be frightened of rats and mice chasing you and biting you at every opportunity. In my case, it was pretty fun actually. Of coourse they chased and bit me, but i found a peculiar object which sorta turns the tables. Miracolously, there was a baseball bat in my dream. Not waiting to pick up anymore souveniers from the animals, I took the bat and its became a battle of david versus goliath. Of course, Goliath would be me cause the animals are not able to fuse together and become a huge chimera like what you would see in the power rangers sorta story.
Well, in the end it still was a nightmare cause these animals are smart and they know where to bite. They bite at where it hurts the most. Ouch!
Anyway thats all for this post. Gotta go back to killing my 105 rats and baby-sitting the other 20.
Ciao
- Music is truly Beautiful
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- zuliver
- October 25th, 12:44
calm
My left hand is seriously blistered from all the chord playing on the guitar. Anyway, here is just a beautiful song that is soo damn soothing to listen to. Its from the sound track of Fame (2009) and its called Ordinary People. Originally sang by John Legend and now sung by Asher Book. Msn me if you want the song. Haha. Enjoy!
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Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday
I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way
I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
- Companionship with Melody
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- zuliver
- October 24th, 20:03
ecstatic
Guess what? I have my guitar in my hands again. Haha. Been since awhile since i've been strumming and plucking and it feels good. The companion that will never leave me. Feels so damn good to be playing it. Of course my fingers are aching from all the plucking but its soo destressing! It blew away all my negative energy and i feel so fresh now. Who knew that such a thing could have great effects?
To make things better, I've found some great new songs to listen to. My ears and mind are in total bliss. I am simply captivated by Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble. Great voice and great lyrics. Just beautiful. Its jazzy, classy and smooth. Really great. Thank you Michael Buble!
Of course there is still other songs by Creed and taylor swift. My ears are in heaven.
Ja Na~
- Decision time
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- zuliver
- October 19th, 8:34
blank
Tell you what. The weekend away made me come to a conclusion. There is no point in me chasing this girl cause its not worth it. SHe wouldnt gain anything from the current me. I'm too busy, too tired and too disorganised to layan her. Been a long time since i spoke to her is all the more reason i should just give up. I know too well already and this would be it. No more chasing this girl. For her sake and mine. Have a good life w/o me. Too bad she doesnt know who she is.
- Heart says One, Brain says another
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- zuliver
- October 16th, 21:23
confused
My brains says it'll never work out. My heart says, its worth a try.
My mind believes I am not the right type. My heart says, you'll never know for sure.
My thoughts keeps ringing to let go. My heart says, hang on awhile more.
What in freaking hell should I do?
- Beautiful dream
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- zuliver
- October 10th, 19:43
high
Talk about REM sleep and indeed i had a good REM sleep. Such a beautiful dream was synthesized in my mind. Such a sweet face and bright smile so close to heart. How i wish it could be reality, not fantasy. Nonetheless, it lifted my spirits a bit. Waking up in the middle of the night with a big smile on my face is a pretty nice feeling.
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Oh sweet angel,
Let me touch your face once more
And watch your eyes sparkle in the moonlight
Along with the stars in the dark night sky.
- Sorting out my thoughts
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- zuliver
- October 6th, 8:59
- contemplative
Guess what, I'm blogging in the office early in the morning again! I guess its the only time i can when i'm not in emoing shitty pathetic state.
So lets sort out the pile of junk that i wrote the previous 3 posts. Basically, i'm feeling like i'm fading from the world. I do not have the time to ask friends out to catch up on them, to hear out their problems or to just slack with them. Of course i still do that with the few ppl who is working around me but those who are elsewhere are simply out of reach.
My nights are really freaky cause its when my tummy controls my actions. At the same time, by the time i reach home to eat dinner, the whole day's exhaustion woul catch up on me and i would not have much energy to come online to chat with people.
So it feels kinda shitty being distant from all the people whom i'm suppose to be close to. I'm seriously losing my touch.
so at this time, i feel that i'm not competent to chase that girl. I know that in my current condition, there is 0% chance that anything good can happen. I know i'm not exactly her type either. So giving up would be the best option, right?
- Untitled
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- zuliver
- October 5th, 21:35
exhausted
I want to seriously just pour out all my feelings and thoughts right here. I'm in the most pathetic condition which makes me in perfect condition to just pour it all out. But i don't wish to do it. It'll potray me as a extremely pathetic man. If only ppl know the suffering i'm going through since july.
I'm just soo exhausted. I don't even want to chase her anymore. Nobody wants a pathetic, sick man like me right? So i might as well just sacrifice my feelings for her and just help her in whatever way i can.
- Blogging in Office
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- zuliver
- October 1st, 8:45
- bored
Its the wee hours in the early morning and i'm already blogging while in the office. Not suppose to be doing this now but since nobody is around, who cares?! Hahaha.
But there isnt much to blog about anyway. Such a monochrome routine. Everyday is almost the same thing. Sigh... Okay back to work.
Ciao
- Beautiful World
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- zuliver
- September 27th, 20:22
artistic
I realised that i love to watch the world go by and the beauty in everything I see, from the people to the sights of nature. If you saw the clouds today at around 4 plus to 5, it was like looking at a white sandy island surrounded by blue water. It was beautiful. Sadly, i did not have my camera in hand. Then during sunset, i was at sembawang area, heading home. There was a huge empty field with a tree barren of its leaves. With the sky of the setting sun as its backdrop, you could see the sillhouette of the branches and twigs. It was another beautiful sight. In my head, i could picture the photo i could have taken.
So many beautiful pictures i want to take. The moments that can be captured and kept forever more. From the beauty of nature, to the beautiful faces around.
- Hari raya day 1 and 2 in sumamry
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- zuliver
- September 27th, 12:15
thoughtful
The past week is a very fast week. Without even realising it, its Sunday already. Back to work tomorrow i guess..
Anyway i wanna do recollection of the past week cause it went by so fast, all the things i wanna blog about just slips through my brain. My pre-frontal cortex must be experiencing an imbalance in chemical concentrations. As if man! If that happened i'll have bipolar disorder, schizophrenia etc etc!
SUNDAY
SUNDAY was hari raya celebration day 1! Going to the mosque for prayer, i felt sad and happy. Sad that the holy month of Ramadhan has left me and i have to wait another year to meet it again. Who knows what might happen from now till then right? All the benefits of ramadhan I have yet to fully take advantage of. May i get to see the next Ramadhan in health. I was also happy as I have made such a big improvement in my faith during this fasting month as copared to previous years. It was a feeling of satisfaction.
After prayers, we headed home to prepare the kuih raya for guests. It was a 2 house affair i tell you. As some of you mght know, my grandma lives literally a stone throws away. 3 doors away to be exact. This year, she's been having a rough time and is rather ill and weak. So my fam had to take care of 2 houses. My mom especially was affected cause she is always going over there to help when my grandma calls. SO, that morning me, my dad, mom and brother went over to grandma's place to set up everything. WE had to set up the buffet sets, kuih bottles, cups, tables, cut all the cakes, ketupats and lontongs. There was really so much to do. My grandma couldn't do anything to help as she was really weak. The maid couldn't hep us either cause she is an extra limb to my grandma now.
Thus, first day we just stayed at grandma's place to welcome visiting guests, serve them food and drinks, refill the food and chit chat with the guests. Usually, in the past years, we would leave in the afternoon to visit other relatives but this year, things was really different. The maid cannot do much work and there is only 1 maid this time round. So we stayed till night. By 9, me and my siblings went back home to clean up at home while my parents handled things at grandma's. They only came back home at ard 12 plus.
MONDAY
Monday was hari raya celebrations Day 2. Morning, we still had to go over to prepare grandma's house to prepare the food but since its the second day, the amt of ppl visiting won't be as much as day 1. So we set the whole place up so that the maid could easily do all the work while helping grandma. With all that done, we zoomed off to western Singapore to visit our relatives over there. We visit according to age and area. The elders have the priority. So we went round the west area visiting the elderly relatives, chit-chatting with them and bonding with them. You feel really mortalised when you see some of them. Some aged pretty well while others did not age very well. Some of them are reaching 90 soon, most are mid 80's, there's even one who is 90+ alr. But one thing they share in common, THEY HAVE PET CATS!!! So CUTE!!!! All pampered cats i tell you. Being cat-lovers, my baju-kurung was covered with cat fur by the end of the day. Some of them are young cats while others were old ones. No kittens sadly but the young ones were just as playful.
Anyway thats all i shall write for now. My fingers are tired from typing. Haha.
Ciao ppl~
- Its all routine
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- zuliver
- September 24th, 20:41
Life's a routine right now. Everyday seems to be the same thing again and again and again. Very monotonous. Like a monochrome world. Thank god it rained this morning. Made my morning a bit more fun. Feeling the water splashing onto your face as you walk. If ony i could just ply in the rain. It would have been so much fun.
Anyhow, I've finally recovered from my hyperacidity! ALHAMDULILLAH! After 2.5 months i'm finaly alright. Feels great. But i'm still gonna be careful of what i eat. And NO MORE COFFEE FOR ME! I'm scared of it alr.
Okay right now i got a writers block. There was so much i wanted to write but they just sliped out of my mind. So thats it for now.
Ciao~
- Massacre's and Saikang!
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- zuliver
- September 22nd, 21:28
bouncy
Its been quite some time since i last updated. Got ppl think my rats eat me. Hahahaha. Merepek aje!
ANYWAY, i'm now incharge of doing food and water intake for any new line of mice who comes into the facility. That means we need to fast the mice, feed them, fast them again, then feed them again and measure their food and water intake at 4 time points. Its a troublesome process. Takes 5 days to do it. Busy busy busy. Furthermore i'm also helping another project which requires me to supply peanut butter to a group of mice every 3 to 4 days. I picked one of them up today and seriously, its like a ball of fluff now. SO DAMN FAT! Its cute but they have a nasty bite. Know whats the best part? Its not even related to my Major Project! Hahaha. Saikang warrior...
Another thing is, i've been practicing my restrain with the fiercest mice strain in the world called black6. I must say, i'm getting pretty good at it. SO let me tell you my practice routine. Take out from cage, restrain, IP, SC, PO then throw into CO2 chamber and suffocate it to death. Then its cardiac puncture. Sounds cruel right? Don't think about it, one of them nicked my finger. Got one small scar now. Anyway for the record, i have thus far euthanised 73 mice. 71 of them by CO2, 2 by cervical dislocation cause i crushed their spine by accident. Therefore, I'm a mass murderer too. Haha.
Thats it for now. I'll talk about other stuff later. I wanna sleep cause tomorrow I'm gonna be doing saikang, then help in rat surgery, then dosing of rats for experiment.
Ciao!
- Through the looking lens
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- zuliver
- September 15th, 21:00
I want to take my camera in hand again. Its been a very long time since i been taking photos of my day to day activity. But bringing around the camera is gonna be real tough. The bloody train in always so bloody pack. Its not good for the camera. I'll try though. Biopolis got some nice sights like the KTM railway. Hehe.
- After 1 week
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- zuliver
- September 12th, 20:02
- tired
1 week of SIP is over and i'm soo damn shacked. My body is aching all over especially my back. Must be from carrying all the cages and standing around all day in the labs. Everybody wants my help. So i'm helping out in alot of research projects and have hardly any time to read my article. I finally had time to read it completely today and i finally understood the gist of it. Its pretty interesting i must say but its very complicating.
Anyway, even with the aching body i did alot of spring cleaning today. We changed the curtains, cleaned the windows and window panes, cleaned the kitchen and cleaned te picture frames. My back feels like its gonna snap i tell you. Got me real cranky in the afternoon cause its aching real bad. To relieve some of the pain, i lay in bed for an hour or so.
It got me thnking about some stuff (again). Made me think what are some of the qualities that i wish my future gf to have. Hey, i cant help it if my brain wonders into that area very often. So here is just some of it: caring, understanding, easy to talk to and good hygiene. Its some simple stuff .
Well, thats al for now. Pretty tired but i'm gonna read some more articles.
Ciao~
